Oh sh*%!....I'm Gay

d**n it man!!! WTF!!!?? why did this happen to me? 18 yrs old and 4 yrs...4 yrs now my life has been a literal h*ll on earth. every f**king day i wake up and wish the sun wouldn't bother coming out today and what do I do? sit around the freaking computer and jack off to francois sagat and bobby blake. Man F**k it!!! i don't need this sh*% right now! one side o' me is screaming nothing's wrong with being a f*g...hey its actually pretty fun, the other's saying wat the f**k dude? seriously? your'e going to h*ll!! god hates you!! and no matter how F**kING HARD i TRY, nothing works... i still rise to g*dd*mn men. oh god please help me?!!! i can't work, study, hang out or jus be myself....its like a d**n prison inside my own self man...