I Just Miss Her

Nearly two years ago I fell in love with a girl who, half a year later, fell out of love with me. We talked for hours a day, clicked like I never have before, and, unfortunately, our long distance relationship wasn't enough for her. Without telling me, she cut off all communication with me. I still wrote her with any way I could think to. Emails went ignored. MSN messages went unanswered. I honestly though she died and had no way to communicate with her family. While we weren't talking I fantasized daily about tracking her down once I graduated and finding out what happened. I fantasized that, If she had died, I wanted to make a foundation to further her dream of protecting our oceans from the damage we're doing to them. I even often thought of joining the military and just anonymously sending her a check with my sign-up bonus to be put towards her dreams... I hoped she was alright, and only wanted her to be happy. I finally got her to respond to me one day this January and we talked to twice in less than 48 hours. She had met someone else local to her and fallen in love with him. They were engaged, and she thought it best to end all communication with me, yet again. I fell in love with you, the biggest dreamer I've ever known. I fell in love with you, the strongest woman I've ever known. I fell in love with you, the most amazing woman on this planet... I fell in love with you, and I don't go a day without thinking about you and wishing I would just hear from you. I know I won't ever have you and that we may never even speak again... As long as I know that you're happy somewhere, although it may not be with me, it's enough to keep me going. I love you Heather H. and I always will.