Lost.

i feel like no one gets me. if feel like everyone just sees what they think is me. i'm really a weak and sensitive girl who can be easily broken. i hide all my feelings and never talk to anyone. i pretend to be a happy girl. i make other people smile but i can never make myself smile. i look in the mirror and i'm disgusted. i'm not pretty like the other girls. i'm not perfect like the other girls. i hide behind who i want to be and who i really am. but right now i feel like everythings just speeding on by. i feel like life's going to fast and everything's being rushed. i just want to slow down and take everything one day at a time. i want to be able to be happy about who i am but i know i never will be. all of my friends are absolutely beautiful and i feel hideous. i can't take it. when someone tells me they hate me or saay bad stuff i act like it doesn't bother me but i does. i will go home and cry. i can't stand fighting to i be nice to everyone. but sometimes i'm because i'm jealous of just about every other girl i know. i just wanna know who i am. and be happy. truely happy..